Today has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least.
The countdown to bringing J. home has been altered a bit...I wasn't OK with it today but I am now. Instead of bringing him home on Saturday the 15th we must now wait until Tuesday the 18th. Three days may not seem like a big deal but, to us, it is an eternity. With every day inching by as if on little bitty caterpillar feet, waiting three more days seemed interminable.
But it's OK.
The reason is that the birthmother has 14 consecutive 24-hour periods in which to change her mind. The end of that period is 8:00pm on Friday, the 14th. Because it is a Friday night, she could submit a petition and the agency not receive it until Monday morning. If we were to pick him up Saturday, there is still a risk that it could be reversed.
Soooooooo.....I am sad. I'm disappointed that my "10 days til J. countdown" today has changed to 13. But, in the big picture, it does not matter. He is in a loving foster home being oooed and gooed over by a lovely lady. And, as much as I wish that lady were me, I feel in my heart that we are doing the right thing. We are waiting until he is legally free to protect the heart of our 5-year old that wants more than anything to be a big brother. To see that ripped away from him would be the end of me for sure.
So...turn back your countdown clocks a bit and join with us in gratitude that we even have this opportunity. There is a reason for everything and this reason is pretty practical. We brought our first child home at 27 MONTHS old and he's the love of our life.
Three days will not kill me.
5 comments:
You are a very strong and brave woman. You deserve this so much. I am sorry that you have to wait an addition three days, but you are right, so many years from now you won't think about those three days because you will be way too busy loving that little boy! Hang in there.
Red tape is never pretty. You ARE strong and very right...13 days more until he's yours forever.
God is still in control over every detail...
Hang in there! You have a great perspective on this and Jacob will be with you before you know it.
I'm sure this was heartbreaking news to hear today. BUT - you are a STRONG woman! You can handle it!! It will be here before you know it - and 13 days is nothing compared to a lifetime of joy you're going to give this little one and he's going to give to you! Just think of it as 3 extra days to find a dresser! :-)
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