Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Swirling, Twirling Thoughts

It's one of those nights.

One of those nights? There is no other night like this. This is the night that our son is being born. And here I sit, fingertips nervously tap, tap, tapping away at these black keys... trying their best to share my thoughts with you.

What is happening right now? Is there someone there to hold her hand and tell her everything will be alright? Is the room brightly lit or serenely dim? Are the beeps of the fetal monitor comforting to her or does it make her sad? Do the nurses know about her adoption plan and are they treating her with gentleness? Will there be a stork taped to her door like the other rooms signaling the arrival of "Baby Boy?" What is she feeling right now...right at this very moment?

I imagine it to be a mixture of every emotion I've ever felt... like different colors squeezed onto a palette. The colors blend together making swirling patterns... much like the patterns of thought running rampant through my mind.

Swirling, twirling thoughts of gladness, excitement, trepidation...emotions both anxious and elated.

Yes, it is one of those nights.


Anonymous said...

Are we still waiting???? (Yes, I'm checking here at 6:55am before getting ready for NLBC and yes, I'm waiting with just as much anticipation for you guys!). :-) Have a great day! I'm sure it will be an exciting one!

Shannon P.

Nicki said...

The waiting will be over so very soon! So many thoughts and emotions to wrap your mind and heart around.