Friday, November 16, 2007

Not for the Faint of Heart

Since May 2004, I have been a walkin', talkin' billboard for adoption. And I always will be.

But, I must tell ya. These past few days have been killer. For some reason, this afternoon finds me nervous, anxious, and about to crawl outta my skin. Our meeting with the birthparents who chose us is Monday. I have never been as worried about a meeting in my life. To us, it feels like the biggest, most important job interview ever. But that's not all...

What I am most anxious about is not being in control of the situation. Folks, this is hard for a control freak. You know, the whole NOT being in control thing. My leg is bouncin a mile a minute and my head is spinning thinking about all the changes that our family could undergo ... in a matter of weeks!

Holy crib sheets, Batman.

So, we wait. We pray. I eat sugar cookies.

Did I mention I'm a stress eater?

Oh yeah, back to the adoption.

I picked out a bedding set, ya'll. And it really is the cutest. bedding thing. ever. And I have been folding little onesies and such. Oh the sweetness of a warm, fuzzy sleeper. I never took myself as one who would coo over pajamas with ducks on the feet. I actually cooed . . . outloud . . . in Babys 'R Us. I'm a goner.

:: big, deep sigh ::

Is this really happening? It may be stressful, but it sure has been fun getting ready.

More on Monday. You know, following THE meeting.

:: breathe......................... ::

13 comments:

Megan (FriedOkra) said...

Holy SOMETHING, anyway, that is for sure. Sheeeeeeeeesh. I'm on the edge of my seat.

Bean had a sleeper with ducky feet. I remember it so clearly... one night she was sick, I lay in the bed next to Al, with an 8 month old Bean lying tummy to tummy on my chest. I didn't sleep a wink, she was restless and wakeful but dozed off and on, and we just lay there together in the dark, listening to Al's breathing. And she had on that ducky foot sleeper.

I hope you will have some amazing memories with this little guy in his ducky foot sleeper, Katie. I am so praying for it.

I will pray for some peace and blessed assurance for my sweet friend, too.

Hugs -

M

Loretta Speaks said...

I can't wait for Monday!

Anonymous said...

Anxiously waiting and praying with you, my friend!!!
You'll be GREAT and they would be insane not to instantly love you both!!!!!

Jeanette said...

Just be yourself on Monday and you will be fine. You are a good person and have alot to offer a child, that will be apparant in your meeting.
I'll keep you in my prayers and I'll be sending you lots of POSITIVE thoughts and wishes.

Cindy said...

YEAH for fuzzy sleepers and for a mommy who gets to use them. So thrilled for you. Monday is one step closer!!!

Anonymous said...

You guys are going to do great! I can't wait to hear how it went!! Is Daniel excited?

Shannon P.

julie said...

I will being keeping you in my prayers that all goes well. I am a stress eater too. I totally understand.

Girl Gone Wild - BibleStyle said...

2 more days left...you can do it! Can't wait to hear how the meeting goes. Lots of prayers going your way this weekend!

Gayle said...

Just reading your post made me anxious for you! Wow! Can't wait to hear how the meeting goes!

Beth said...

Do not be anxious for anything; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. - Philippians 4:6

This verse came to mind while reading this post. Pray, pray, pray!!

I am praying that everything will go well for you on Monday. Can't wait to hear all about it!

Debbie said...

As a fellow control freak who is not in control of her own current situation, I feel you! Our Monday closings have been delayed a week. The good news is I can now focus all my energy on you, Keith, Daniel and O.P.! Praying for all the best for you and the little one.

Megan (FriedOkra) said...

I hope you've had a good weekend. Just wanted to stop by and say that I'll be thinking of y'all tomorrow and praying/hoping for a wonderful meeting and a beautiful connection. I'll be anxiously awaiting and update.

Also, your little music jukebox down there disappeared. Where did it go? Where'd you get it? Can I get one? I need one.

Hugs hugs hugs... and all of the very very best tomorrow.

M

Nicki said...

I hope all goes well for you during the big meeting.