Saturday, June 18, 2011

A Certain Madness

I love to write. I love putting into words even the most mundane things that occur throughout my day. Sometimes, truthfully, I love to write so that I am not the only one that knows what's going on in this crazy, mixed-up head of mine. And yet, I find myself going weeks, sometimes months, without logging a single word.

Why?

I hate to say it but I think I'm a lazy perfectionist. Is that possible? Every day, the perfect blog swirls in my head yet I never commit pen to paper--or finger to keyboard--to get it recorded before moving on to my next idea or the next thing on my to-do list. Sometimes it is just a lack of motivation but other times I'm afraid it's because I fear it's not "perfect." That it won't be worthy of someone's time and that is equally frustrating. I am as far from perfect as a person can be...why do I expect my writing to be? It's a madness I tell ya.

I am not going to make some big spectacle here and recommit to blogging something EVERY DAY. Instead, I'm going to give myself a break. I'm dealing with a lot of challenges right now...some I can write about and some I can't. But, what I can do is give myself a little grace and simply write when I can.

And maybe, just maybe, little bits of Katie will start pouring out again.

I guess if you're reading this, it's already working. :)


3 comments:

Jennifer Shaheen said...

You are beautiful even in your own "crazy, imperfect" kinda way.. The love you show to others and the words you use to express that love makes my heart smile.. I love your honesty, your kind heart.. And I am glad grateful I get to experience it thru what you write.. So thank you.. From the bottom of my heart!!!

Jeremy Pittman said...

"Everybody needs a little time away. I heard her say..." :)

Jeanette said...

Sometimes life has a way of pulling us in different directions at the same time. If you wrote everyday just to be writing everyday, then it would not be the same.
Your post are always so descriptive and entertaining. The love always comes pouring out. I have shed a tear several times while reading your Bog.
So live your life and if you have the desire to drop into the Blog World and share a thought or two, we will be here to read your words.